This is Naomi Müller and she is RESILIENT.
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Describe the situation where you had to be resilient:
My whole life I was confronted with the loss of loved ones. Two losses hit me harder than every loss before. At the age of 17, my best friend died because of a car accident and one year later my cousin also died in a car accident.
Naomi Story:
At first, I thought I had everything under control. Everything was better than fine. The people around me knew that I wasn’t okay, but I didn’t.
A few months of just working, doing everything to just not think about anything, destroyed my perfect little dream world. I hit rock bottom. I couldn’t do anything anymore.
I couldn’t pray, eat, shower, talk, sleep, walk, work, etc. I felt empty and worthless for life. My life didn’t have anything that I wanted to live for. I had crazy depressing thoughts that I didn’t care if I would die now. I wanted to die. I thought it would be a relief for me.
One rainy night my car nearly came off the road, I couldn’t see anything. I just thought yes, this is it. But life had a different plan. I don’t know how I got home safe or how I am alive. But I thank god that I am. He saved me. That night I didn’t realise, that this was a miracle.
So, I got sucked into my depression again. My sister and her family came for a visit from the UK they saw that something was very wrong with me, so we had very long conversations, prayed so so much and they took me to a doctor so I could tell him what’s going on.
As a next step I came clean to my whole family. I told them every little detail.
When I finally saw how afraid my mom (and my family) was, because she thought she had lost me forever, I just knew that I had to change things!
I had to stop hurting myself.
I had to stop shutting myself out.
I had to start eating again.
I had to start taking my medication.
I had to start therapy.
I had to start talking.
I had to stop punishing me for things I didn’t do.
I HAD TO LEARN LOVING MYSELF AND MY LIFE!
It is still difficult for me to live without these amazing people but it’s okay. It is still difficult to eat, talk and doing everything, but I know that there are people that care and love me.
Life has so many wonderful things for me!
I finally started loving life again.
How did you practice resilience when faced with this challenge?
I look back at this challenge and know that I got through it. That makes me strong.
Please share one piece of advice for people who are going through a similar challenge:
Take your time. Surround yourself with good and trusting people. Start to open up and talk!
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